On Death - Steve Biko

I have just about finished reading I Write What I like and it has changed the way I think about almost every aspect of my waking life. 

These words, extracted from an interview with an American businessman given some months before Steve’s final detention and death, but not printed in The New Republic until 7 January 1978, need no further comment.

You are either alive and proud or you are dead, and when you are dead, you can’t care anyway. And your method of death can itself be a politicising thing. So you die in the riots. For a hell of a lot of them, in fact, there’s really nothing to lose - almost literally, given the kind of situations that they come from. So if you can overcome the personal fear of death, which is a highly irrational thing, you know, then you’re on the way.

And in interrogation the same sort of thing applies. I was talking to this policeman, and I told him, ‘If you want us to make any progress, the best thing is for us to talk. Don’t try any form of rough stuff, because it just won’t work.’ And this is absolutely true also. For I just couldn’t see what they could do to me which would make me all of a sudden soften to them. If they talk to me, well i’m bound to be affected by them as human beings. But the moment they adopt rough stuff, they are imparting in my mind that they are police. And I only understand one form of dealing with police, and that’s to be as unhelpful as possible. So I button up. And I told them this: ‘It’s up to you’. We had a boxing match the first day I was arrested. Some guy tried to clout me with a club. I went into him like a bull. I think he was under instructions to take it so far and no further, and using open hands so that he doesn’t leave marks on the face. And of course he said exactly what you were saying just now: ‘I will kill you’. He meant to intimidate. And my answer was: ‘How long is it going to take you?’. Now of course they were observing my reaction. And they could see that I was completely un-bothered. If they beat me up, it’s to my advantage.I can use it. They killed somebody in jail - a friend of mine - about ten days before I was arrested. Now it would have been bloody evidence for them to assault me. At least it would indicate what kind of possibilities were there, leading to this guy’s death. So, I wanted them to go ahead and do what they could do, so that I could use it. I wasn’t really afraid that their violence might lead me to make revelations that I didn’t want to make, because I had nothing to reveal on this particular issue. I was operating from a very good position. My attitude is, I’m not going to allow them to carry out their program faithfully. If they want to beat me five times, they can only do so on condition that I allow them to beat me five times. If I react sharply, equally and oppositely, to the first clap, they are not going to be able to systematically count the next four claps, you see. It’s a fight. So if they had meant to give me so much of a beating, and not more, my idea is to make them go beyond what they wanted to give me and to give back as much as I can so that it meant he must hit back, like a man. But he was given instructions, you see, on how to hit, and now these instructions were no longer applying because it was a fight. So he had to withdraw and get more instructions. So I said to them, ‘Listen, if you guys want to do this your way, you have got to handcuff me and bind my feet together, so that I can’t respond. If you allow me to respond, I’m certainly going to respond. And I’m afraid you might have to kill me in the process even if it’s not your intention.’

I decided to share this chapter because it captures Steve’s incredible and infectious charisma and attitude to the system he so passionately fought against. Though this is not the only piece that may reflect on Biko’s being, this specific passage moved me. Reading through it gave me chills, thinking about what ‘The System used to do to silence the opposition to the regime. I am in awe of Steve Biko. I am grateful every day for men like Biko and Mandela and Sobukwe who fought for our freedom and lost so much in the interim. Thank you, thank you!!!

Once in a while I ditch the curls…

When you least expect it from the person you least expect 💃🙋😬

Ok bye 😢 (at Sun City Cascades Hotel)

Lunch. And then the mother of all naps afterward. #iwannadothiseveryday #tincupswine coz @sugaryoblivion tweeted about it the other day

My “I don’t wanna smile for the pic coz I’m enjoying this ice cream” face. (at Valley of the Waves)

Do you know how happy I am rn? (at The Palace Of The Lost City At Sun City)

Today I learned that I have a real and completely irrational but still crippling fear of monkeys. I would laugh but I’m too shit scared to. 🙈🙊🙉😰 (at Vacation Club Sun City)

Gooooood morning! (at The Palace Of The Lost City At Sun City)

If you don’t mind too much, I’m just gonna live next to the pool with Bae (at Vacation Club Sun City)

"Smile for the photo JP" (at Valley of the Waves)

I fucking love my family though. Even if I look like an alien.

My bestie on the long road. It’s lipgloss, gangster chains and ponytails all day today #PeytonSoCute

My bedroom will look something like this at some point in my life